what do i do now that my roommate's out of town? veg out. i watched way too much tv. daytime tv sucks. i did manage to do the dishes, clean the air circulation filter thingy and make myself dinner.

i'm listening to the new coldplay album and trying to absorb cool hand luke. i'm feeling like God's dealing me nothing, i'm wondering if i can somehow turn it into a real cool hand. the thing is... i'm not sure if i'm supposed to find my own way (like luke did). [you probably have to watch the movie to understand what i'm trying to say]. i'm on my knees, staring up at Him, holding out for His voice, waiting for the answer. as much as i want to relate to lucas jackson, i can't "unbelieve" what i already know... my life is already full of blessings. i have pocket aces, but have no confidence that i'll win. there's only one card left to be dealt... it gives new meaning to my plea, "Lord, find me in the river". sorry for all of the (somewhat) obscure poker references. i'll be happy to explain in person if you want.

i haven't done my qt in over a week. gotta get back into daniel. maybe God'll tell me something... maybe He'll give me a job.