i'm sitting back in my chair and getting that deep-breathing (sighing) / tingling-in-my-nose-when-i-inhale sensation... when i exhale my eyes get watery. it's like i'm hyper-sensitive... on the verge of breaking down and bawling... about what? i have no idea. there's nothing in my mind or heart to push the tears over my lower lids.

i kinda want to just bust out... get all weepy and have to rub my nose across my forearm, smearing the salty snot on my bare skin. i want to interrupt these deep sighs with that spastic jerk-breathing i used to get in elementary school. i want to emit a faint falsetto wimper and slowly crank the volume until i'm wailing from my gut.

there is nothing though... just the whirring of my g3 processor and the consistent sound of air quickly passing through my nostrils. maybe tomorrow.

jeremiah tomorrow.
roboto today.