in my previous blog entry, i mentioned that i got less sleep but that i felt fine. well, i guess i was wrong. i was at a small birthday dinner for helen and people kept saying that i didn't seem like myself. they kept asking if i was feeling okay... if i was down about something... if something was on my mind. maybe i was just feeling a little bit pensive. it might have to do something with my roommate being out of town and feeling more "grown up"... i don't know. maybe it was just the (really subtle) sleep deprivation... i did feel a little bit cranky.

anyways, the dinner was at guastavino's. a very nice (and pretty expensive) place on 59th and 1st ave. everybody was impressed with the high, cathedral-esque ceilings and the chichi decor. it was definitely nice... a good date place. but i didn't like the crowd... it seemed packed with guidos and fake blondes... not a place i'd pick up chicks (if i was into that sort of thing). anyways, i had a decent steak and we all shared desserts. i went way over the amount that i wanted to spend and ended up dishing out every monetary note in my wallet.

the conversation was good. not the typical: sports, politics, gossip, relationships. it was a bit more deep... it seemed very much like a small group. we talked about life outlooks and how we see ourselves growing. we talked about what it means to really be yourself. we talked about living by faith (as opposed to just living with it). and we talked about relationships (hahah... c'mon we always talk about relationships).

all in all it was a good dinner... even if i wasn't being myself... i kind of liked just sitting back and not doing all the talking... not verbalizing all the tongue-in-cheek remarks that flash in my brain.

i'm getting sleepy. i may have to hit the sack a little early tonight.
or maybe i'll watch a movie. i need to do something brainless. i'm tired of thinking.