i'm still alive-- but only in the literal sense of the word.
my lungs are breathing... and my heart is still pumping enough blood through my body.

i don't think i've been happy these last couple weeks. i'm not sure if i have enough energy to be happy. i'm doing my best not to "sell-out". but i'm struggling to keep my finances in check. arg. i don't like the amount of whining i've been doing lately either.

*sigh*