i need to move to southern california. i just watched life as a house. it's set on a cliff at what's supposed to be laguna hills. it's beeauuutiful. it makes me want to build a house too. i guess that requires money. something that i don't have. it's weird. i grew up not really caring much for nature. i liked cities because there's alot of people and alot of things to do. now, though, i love spending time at the beach... i love warm (dry) weather... i love frolicking.

i wish they all could be california girls...

new york is smelly, dirty and loud. it's congested and people are rude. the summers are humid and the winters are slushy. one of the few things that keeps me here is remnant. it's like God's making me choose between a-- for a lack of a better word-- pleasant lifestyle and Him. i choose God. i choose Him more reluctantly than i should... it's a struggle. but i choose God.